2023: Ingrate!
One of my favourite moments this year was listening to Jungle perform their 2021 album, "Loving In Stereo," in a train station. Every time I felt happiness this year could easily be tied to music. I got so invested in contributing to music that I started learning the keyboard (a total fail, by the way).
Let’s talk about the year.
I feel very bland and unfulfilled as I write this. I worry I might be slightly burnt out or on the brink of depression. I’m very exhausted, even though I only accomplished 30% of the goals I set out to achieve for the year.
This year has been a very forgettable one. Key highlights include me struggling, getting sick, giving up, acing my career, discovering music, and just being tired.
It’s not all bleak.
I pushed myself this year as well; I put in the work where it mattered, and honestly, some of it amounted to nothing. But I am glad I committed to everything. One thing I am actually looking forward to is how I can push myself even more. The results sometimes make it seem like you might not just be good enough but we keep pushing.
I feel like I should be grateful for the fact that I could have been out here searching for a role because the startup I was at shut down. However, I am still grieving that loss and coming to terms with ensuring it never happens again at the company I work for.
It has redefined my work rate, I can’t explain it but I don’t sleep well knowing I have a pending task, I feel like every day could be the last day.
This year, I can’t exactly take credit for my progress, I am sincerely grateful for the people I met when I met them. I started rethinking my being agnostic because I have been fucking lucky. Honourable mentions go out to Dominic, AJ.
Next year is about setting smaller goals and being the best with clear evidence. I want to be more excited about writing this review. It has slowly become a way for me to become more accountable to myself.
